The Mooney Clan

Our little hockey player..............

What I am doing to get through this time is focusing on our blessings. All I have to do is look at this picture to see why I am the luckiest person in the world. Thanks Trinda for taking this picture.

There is a quote that I found a couple of days ago that I am really focussing on right now. I put it as my favorite quote on facebook and want to put it here too because I think everyone needs a reminder once in awhile. This is the beginning of a new day. God has given me this day to use as I will. I can waste it or use it for good. What I do today is important, because I'm exchanging a day of my life for it. When tomorrow comes, this day will be gone for ever, leaving in its place something that I have traded for it. I want it to be gain, not loss; good, not evil; success, not failure; in order that I shall not regret the price I paid for it. ~ W. Heartsill Wilson

Our hearts are broken. We have shared every moment of this journey to have another baby with everyone so I guess it is necessary to update everyone on what has happened. We have lost the pregnancy. I miscarried yesterday. I am shocked that we are having to add this to our list of struggles in fertility. I sort of feel like saying 'seriously? are you kidding? Is this really happening to us on top of everything else? Why give us any hope in the first place? Why make us think we have finally had a successful embryo transfer for one week? What was that about? What was the point of that?' If I wrote down all the questions I have you would never be done reading this. I'm sure you could read all about them in the 'how to understand a friend who has had a miscarriage' tips... As far as how we are doing - we are so sad for this life that was lost. I am estimated to have been at about 5 1/2 weeks. That's almost 4 weeks that the babies (they suspect, by my h...

I feel really good today. I've been away from home most of the last 3 weeks which was fun but can really mess ya up and I've been so anxious and nervous about the IVF. Now I am home. I am mostly caught up on things that were needing to get done and I am no longer wondering whether I get to have another baby or not. I am feeling settled. It's a relief really. Caden is sleeping and I'm just sitting on my couch in my relatively clean house. I got to go out and spend time with a friend this morning and have plans to do that tonight and tomorrow as well. I need to reconnect with our Regina people. So it all feels good. Of course there is still the worry that something may go wrong with my pregnancy but the biggest step is overwith. I can feel my pulse slowing down. Everything just feels calm right now. (well, until Caden wakes up anyway :)) It was a great week though. Finding out that Yes, the IVF worked this time was the greatest feeling. We were at my parent...

I have been trying to get into my blog to update, all day. I just finally got in and now I'm too tired to write for very long. I will definitely come back and elaborate more but in case you haven't already heard - we did two home pregnancy tests (I got anxious because I was feeling nauseous so we did those early) and then went for a test at the lab. All three came out POSITIVE!!! Y A Y. I had kind of felt different this time than I did the past two times that didn't work out so I was hopeful but still scared that I was setting myself up for disappointment. Fortunately my gut feeling was the right one! I cannot begin to put into words how happy and relieved and excited that I am. We are heading down the road of another wonderful experience. Thank you all for your prayers and well wishes - they give us so much strength. I hope that you will still pray for us and our new baby (ies) during this pregnancy. Ok - good night - we'll write more later.

Caden and I just got home from a week in Estevan - Justin joined us for the weekend there. It was really nice to spend time with our Estevan people. It was also a helpful distraction from our two week wait which is almost up! It was especially fun to see the cousins hanging out together. Caden spent alot of his time following his big cousins Zack and Jaiden around and here is a picture of him hanging out with Kieran. They are the same age. They are going to be trouble as they grow up together!!