All I ever wanted to do was have a family. I had no real career aspirations (obviously) and felt this intense desire to be a mom. As many of you know that took a long time. You may also be thinking - ok - you have the kid now - get over it. But I can't. Every day I look at Caden and am amazed that he is here. Today he kept crawling over to me and wanting up. I don't want a suck for a child. I kind of pride myself on not caving in to whining but I just could not help myself. How must he feel all the times I crawl over to him and want a hug and a kiss when he is in the middle of playing? So I picked him up and hugged and hugged him and felt warm all over. I am overwhelmed with gratefulness for his existence. Life is full of happiness and sorrow and I hope that I am appreciating this wonderful time in my life enough. Oh, here he comes again - time for another hug!
Stay in your lane. Don't look at other people's papers. Those couple of lines jumped out at me as I read Maria Goff's book " Love Lives Here" It reminded me that we can't all live the same life. Comparisons hold us back and discourage us like nothing else. We have fears of being different when we are SUPPOSED to be different. I grew up trying to fit in and not doing a very good job at it. When I was in my teens I thought I'd try a new approach so I started trying to be the opposite of what I was because I thought that is what everyone else wanted me to be. I am chatty and energetic and I tried to be dainty and quiet. I didn't do a very good job of that either. Yikes. Trying to be someone we're not is exhausting and it doesn't work. We seldom fool anyone or achieve the goal we thought we wanted. What we all really want I think, is to connect with one another and to matter. As an adult I have had goals and held them up against other p...
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