I feel good

I feel really good today. I've been away from home most of the last 3 weeks which was fun but can really mess ya up and I've been so anxious and nervous about the IVF. Now I am home. I am mostly caught up on things that were needing to get done and I am no longer wondering whether I get to have another baby or not. I am feeling settled. It's a relief really. Caden is sleeping and I'm just sitting on my couch in my relatively clean house. I got to go out and spend time with a friend this morning and have plans to do that tonight and tomorrow as well. I need to reconnect with our Regina people. So it all feels good. Of course there is still the worry that something may go wrong with my pregnancy but the biggest step is overwith. I can feel my pulse slowing down. Everything just feels calm right now. (well, until Caden wakes up anyway :))

It was a great week though. Finding out that Yes, the IVF worked this time was the greatest feeling. We were at my parents' place on the weekend and still had a good 5 or 6 days til I was scheduled to get the preg. test but I had been feeling so sick and just kind of thought maybe I was. Justin thought we should go to Walmart after church on sunday and buy a home test so we did. My entire family was around and I went off to do this test. Crazy! Sure enough it came up positive. I was ecstatic in that moment. I was shaking and crying. I couldn't stop thanking God for this gift. I still can't. I went and casually got Justin and was able to tell him (in private) and then we kept it to ourselves for the rest of the day. That was really hard because we wanted to share it with everyone. We did another test at home on monday and then I went to a walk in clinic and got them to send me for another. Once all those came back positive I was feeling pretty good. It was so nice to find out so much earlier than we thought we would. It's exciting.