Times are a-changin'. Last night we test drove our first minivan. That was weird. Today I took a bunch of pictures of our condo before I start taking pictures down and dismantling everything. The main floor is already filled with boxes. We are going to miss this place. But last night we drove by our new house and I'm really excited about that too. It'll be so great to just get into it and get sort of settled.
I keep going back and forth emotionally. Obviously I am so in love with our babies and can't wait to meet them but today Caden and I were laying on the couch together watching cartoons and I wondered how often we will get that kind of time together once everything changes. I try not to worry about him but I can't help but wonder how all of these changes are going to effect him.
And when we looked at that van last night I tried to act out how I will get the infant seats into the back over top of the bases that will be in the front buckets and am seriously wondering if I will actually, physically, be able to do it. I had a bit of a panic attack "I can't do this!!!". It is definitely a little scary at the moment. But people have done it and I will too! It's just so hard to picture.
In some ways I'm just anxious to have the babies get here so we can just get at it. But at the same time I can't imagine ever feeling ready or prepared. This is definitely an adventure. So - ya - those are my thoughts this morning :)
I keep going back and forth emotionally. Obviously I am so in love with our babies and can't wait to meet them but today Caden and I were laying on the couch together watching cartoons and I wondered how often we will get that kind of time together once everything changes. I try not to worry about him but I can't help but wonder how all of these changes are going to effect him.
And when we looked at that van last night I tried to act out how I will get the infant seats into the back over top of the bases that will be in the front buckets and am seriously wondering if I will actually, physically, be able to do it. I had a bit of a panic attack "I can't do this!!!". It is definitely a little scary at the moment. But people have done it and I will too! It's just so hard to picture.
In some ways I'm just anxious to have the babies get here so we can just get at it. But at the same time I can't imagine ever feeling ready or prepared. This is definitely an adventure. So - ya - those are my thoughts this morning :)
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