To set the stage - I have had no sleep. The kids took turns being up all night. I'm not sure what the problem was but I'm not too happy about it. Anyway, once I could see straight, I was in the bathroom putting my hair up or something and Dylan was in there with me. He always follows us in there. No big deal. But then I hear Liam crying in the living room so I run out and see. He's fallen. He does that a lot now that he has started pulling up on everything. I gave him a bit of a hug and some love. Then I go back to see what Dylan is doing and he has unrolled a whole bunch of toilet paper. He was just sitting in it and laughing away. Luckily Evan was just sitting and playing in the living room. Needless to say - if you ever come over - say in the middle of the afternoon - and I look like I just got up - that'll be why! Even just to go brush my teeth (I never get to makeup or doing my hair! That's pretty fancy for me now.) - I have to come out while brushing b/c someone has started crying. Either they fell or a brother has crawled over another brother, or one has pulled another's hair or gouged their eyes. Oh boy oh boy oh boy!! I'm not supposed to want to rush a developmental stage right? I can't help but admit I was thinking about how it'll be to send them all off to school one day :).
Stay in your lane. Don't look at other people's papers. Those couple of lines jumped out at me as I read Maria Goff's book " Love Lives Here" It reminded me that we can't all live the same life. Comparisons hold us back and discourage us like nothing else. We have fears of being different when we are SUPPOSED to be different. I grew up trying to fit in and not doing a very good job at it. When I was in my teens I thought I'd try a new approach so I started trying to be the opposite of what I was because I thought that is what everyone else wanted me to be. I am chatty and energetic and I tried to be dainty and quiet. I didn't do a very good job of that either. Yikes. Trying to be someone we're not is exhausting and it doesn't work. We seldom fool anyone or achieve the goal we thought we wanted. What we all really want I think, is to connect with one another and to matter. As an adult I have had goals and held them up against other p...
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I can tell you you can look forward to the day when the boys will come in the bathroom, sit quietly, help you turn on the hair dryer and hand you your hairbrush. There are great days ahead.