For once, a week flew by. That's likely because I had a good friend visit for a couple of days. I got to go for a pedicure and out with my husband to see a comedian and then he was off on Wednesday. Yesterday was moms and tots and now here it is, friday already! I'm so glad. I wish that that meant I was all caught up on my stuff to do but that never really happens does it? I used to get that feeling sometimes. Back when it was just Caden and I during the day. Going from one kid to four kids in one fell swoop definitely takes adjusting to and after a year - I'm still not used to it. I still want to get my errands run and groceries purchased and all my housework done, during the day, while Justin is at work. HA HA HA. That will not ever happen again. That's disconcerting to me. I'm a slow learner I guess. I'm also having a hard time admitting, even after a year of trying to get 'caught up' and it never happening, that it never will.
My big job right now is trying to realize that everything does not NEED to be done. No one else expects me to (without any hired helped )take care of 3 one yr. olds and one 3 yr. old while also having a completely spotless house, stocked fridge, clean laundry and lovely crafts, done by my children on the clean walls. They probably also don't expect me to have both vehicles clean, the garage and every other room in my house completely organized, and all my christmas gifts purchased by now. They likely wouldn't even be ashamed of me for having bad hair, bad clothes and not as many showers as I might like to be having. Not to mention keeping in touch with all my friends and family in the way that I would like to. And Yet - I seem to be expecting at least that much of myself and a tonne more - like a part time job so that I can help with expenses. When I write it down I can see the ridiculousness of it. BUT - I can't stop trying to get there. It's insane.
All that said, I do spend a lot of time with the kids. That's not too much of a struggle. They are stinkin' adorable and I can't hug them enough so that part of it is going ok. I know how to stop doing and start playing with the kids. But during their 2 hour nap I should be able to do all those things listed above right? :)
I have to laugh at myself and you can to if you like! Life at our house is kind of funny most of the time.
So - while I admit to dissatisfaction issues as far as keeping up with stuff goes, the satisfaction I feel when I look at these beautiful kids far outweighs that. I absolutely love my family and we are already having so much fun together. The kids are doing new things everyday and becoming more and more a part of everything. We are starting to really feel like a family of 6. I can't take enough pictures or enough videos. Every moment is so precious. I want to capture each of their little laughs and the little noises they make. They are each so unique. It's just fabulous.
Well, anyway - there are some thoughts from today! I guess I'd better go and get back to my 'to do' list! :)
My big job right now is trying to realize that everything does not NEED to be done. No one else expects me to (without any hired helped )take care of 3 one yr. olds and one 3 yr. old while also having a completely spotless house, stocked fridge, clean laundry and lovely crafts, done by my children on the clean walls. They probably also don't expect me to have both vehicles clean, the garage and every other room in my house completely organized, and all my christmas gifts purchased by now. They likely wouldn't even be ashamed of me for having bad hair, bad clothes and not as many showers as I might like to be having. Not to mention keeping in touch with all my friends and family in the way that I would like to. And Yet - I seem to be expecting at least that much of myself and a tonne more - like a part time job so that I can help with expenses. When I write it down I can see the ridiculousness of it. BUT - I can't stop trying to get there. It's insane.
All that said, I do spend a lot of time with the kids. That's not too much of a struggle. They are stinkin' adorable and I can't hug them enough so that part of it is going ok. I know how to stop doing and start playing with the kids. But during their 2 hour nap I should be able to do all those things listed above right? :)
I have to laugh at myself and you can to if you like! Life at our house is kind of funny most of the time.
So - while I admit to dissatisfaction issues as far as keeping up with stuff goes, the satisfaction I feel when I look at these beautiful kids far outweighs that. I absolutely love my family and we are already having so much fun together. The kids are doing new things everyday and becoming more and more a part of everything. We are starting to really feel like a family of 6. I can't take enough pictures or enough videos. Every moment is so precious. I want to capture each of their little laughs and the little noises they make. They are each so unique. It's just fabulous.
Well, anyway - there are some thoughts from today! I guess I'd better go and get back to my 'to do' list! :)
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