Our boys have been 3 for over a month now and I am just amazed at how much my life has changed. Having triplet babies (and a 2 year old) is really really hard. Having triplet one year olds is also hard. Having triplet 2 year olds is simply a test in survival. That was definitely the toughest stage on both Justin and me. Some people have said that age 3 is as difficult (and you all know we all love our kids but admit it, little kids are a lot of work) as age 2. Well, that wasn't the news I wanted a year ago. So far though - that hasn't been the case for us. We are having SO MUCH FUN. It's nuts and chaotic. I'm not really expecting that to change. There are definitely challenges. I'm not expecting that to change either. What has changed is my attitude and my general feelings, day to day. I don't feel like I'm going to collapse at any minute and I feel like I have time to think or even bake if I'm really inspired. I'm super busy but I don't feel like I'm buried beneath the responsibilities of our home and family. I feel like I am having trouble explaining. All I can really say is that I don't feel like I'm walking in a fog anymore. I feel like I can start looking out again. I am able to start thinking about how I can get involved with church and community again. I wasn't able to do much of anything for the past 3 years. There was nothing left of me to give. I often woke up feeling the burden of the day ahead quite heavy to my mind. That has gone away. There are still struggles for sure. I'm just really glad that I feel somewhat normal again. I was starting to wonder if I ever would!
Stay in your lane. Don't look at other people's papers. Those couple of lines jumped out at me as I read Maria Goff's book " Love Lives Here" It reminded me that we can't all live the same life. Comparisons hold us back and discourage us like nothing else. We have fears of being different when we are SUPPOSED to be different. I grew up trying to fit in and not doing a very good job at it. When I was in my teens I thought I'd try a new approach so I started trying to be the opposite of what I was because I thought that is what everyone else wanted me to be. I am chatty and energetic and I tried to be dainty and quiet. I didn't do a very good job of that either. Yikes. Trying to be someone we're not is exhausting and it doesn't work. We seldom fool anyone or achieve the goal we thought we wanted. What we all really want I think, is to connect with one another and to matter. As an adult I have had goals and held them up against other p...
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Sharon Parker