I think of that verse a lot in terms of my life with my kids. There are days where I feel completely in tune with the kind of mom I want to be. I'm all loving and patient and even fun. But then there are those days where I feel like I've lost my mind. Could be hormones I suppose or just 'getting to the end of my rope' or more likely, it is when my selfishness and human exhaustion take over. I get so discouraged because I am constantly challenging myself to do better and be better but then I'm down to basic instincts with my reactions to my kids. Really? I know it is normal but that doesn't mean it's ok. So - every day I try again and I'm good at apologizing to the boys if I need to. They know I love them. But still, I will strive to have those days as little as possible and do the things I need to do to keep them at bay. Right now that means getting a good sleep and praying a lot!! Speaking of praying, if you want to pray for Evan and I that would be good. I'm trying to potty train a child who is way too laid back about it :)
Stay in your lane. Don't look at other people's papers. Those couple of lines jumped out at me as I read Maria Goff's book " Love Lives Here" It reminded me that we can't all live the same life. Comparisons hold us back and discourage us like nothing else. We have fears of being different when we are SUPPOSED to be different. I grew up trying to fit in and not doing a very good job at it. When I was in my teens I thought I'd try a new approach so I started trying to be the opposite of what I was because I thought that is what everyone else wanted me to be. I am chatty and energetic and I tried to be dainty and quiet. I didn't do a very good job of that either. Yikes. Trying to be someone we're not is exhausting and it doesn't work. We seldom fool anyone or achieve the goal we thought we wanted. What we all really want I think, is to connect with one another and to matter. As an adult I have had goals and held them up against other p...
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