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I Do That Which I Do Not Want To Do....

I think of that verse a lot in terms of my life with my kids.  There are days where I feel completely in tune with the kind of mom I want to be.  I'm all loving and patient and even fun.  But then there are those days where I feel like I've lost my mind.  Could be hormones I suppose or just 'getting to the end of my rope' or more likely, it is when my selfishness and human exhaustion take over.  I get so discouraged because I am constantly challenging myself to do better and be better but then I'm down to basic instincts with my reactions to my kids.  Really?  I know it is normal but that doesn't mean it's ok.  So - every day I try again and I'm good at apologizing to the boys if I need to.  They know I love them.  But still, I will strive to have those days as little as possible and do the things I need to do to keep them at bay.  Right now that means getting a good sleep and praying a lot!!  Speaking of praying, if you want to pray for Evan and I that

By Design

WE ONLY GET ONE LIFE TO LIVE! I think about these words all the time.  I (try to) use them to make decisions and to think about how to live each day and to work on my negative attitudes.  I struggle to balance all the different areas of importance - as we all do.  We have to dream about the future and be happy/content in the present.  We have to do the dishes AND spend time with our children.  Balance.  I also don't think this is a selfish and secular thought.  God gave us this life and He expects us to Live it Fully and to me, that means always trying to hear what it is that God wants us to do with it.  Not what do I WANT (although there is something to be said for the desires that God puts on our hearts).  We can waste our time or we can try to get and give the most that we can within it.  Fear is a big problem here.  I want to work on my fears.  I think they are stopping me from pushing myself to do and be more and better. This is where my mind is these days.  I really w

We've come a long way...

Ran across this picture today and felt my heart fill up. Wow - that seems like ages ago. What sweet blessings. I overheard the kids talking today and they were discussing how "my mom is your mom too. She's your mom and your mom and your mom and my mom. She is all or our moms". Awww...

Handy Manny

I'm smiling today because my kids are learning about drafting when racing on handy manny. I'm glad that they are making sure the next generation knows about that! :)

Easter Weekend

We had a full and wonderful family holiday this past long weekend. We went up to Edmonton for a few days. Our first stop in the.mall was the Disney Store. The kids loved that place, naturally. Then we all went on the old time ship. Back to the hotel to a very basic pool - but the kids had a blast. Well, Dylan and Caden had a blast and Liam and Evan were satisfied to watch them from the steps. We were at GalaxyLand the minute it opened which is definately the way to do it on a holiday weekend. There were no lines and we got a double stroller. We stayed a few hours and then it was way too crowded but we had done all the little kid rides by then anyway. Down time at the hotel - movie time. We were plenty played out! The next night we went to Calgary because Justin's sister very conveniently had her baby while we were still in Edmonton! YAY. Thanks for that Jacquie. So the kids got to have an Easter Egg hunt at Grandma and Grandpa's and I got to go shopping by myself (the

Wow

I feel like I need to blog about this past weekend but there's just too much to say. It was Western Christian College's final homecoming and there was almost 1000 people here. So I am just trying to think about how I feel today. I feel a lot of things but overall, I feel pretty great. I am exhausted of course and my house is a disaster but to me, those are signs of a great and full life. This is living! Spending time with people, deepening relationships, sharing life, stories, pain and happiness. It was wonderful and I'm so thankful for our friends, our families, and the path that we have traveled so far. And once again, I have been reminded of how short life is and that we should never waste a moment of it. Oh, I want to express so many other thoughts right now but I'm just not very good and getting them out the way I want to. So, I will just say that it was all so..... Good.