I've been feeling like I should be sharing a little about what is going on in our lives right now. We've had some company and done some visiting. We are keeping busy with teaching Sunday school and doing some church bookkeeping. Justin's work has slowed down but he is still somewhat busy with stuff there. Caden is enjoying library class on Monday mornings. He is still really into trains, construction stuff and footballs, basketballs, tennis balls, soccer balls, pucks and on and on. He likes to color and paint some and is more and more into books all the time. We have some struggles with getting him to eat and sometimes with getting him to nap in the afternoon. We just keep plugging along. Things are good.
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we are going to do IVF again. I did mention it once before and there really isn't much to say. We go to Calgary on March 7th or so and will be back the next week sometime. The pregnancy test will be around the 21st of March.
I'm having trouble knowing what to write. I keep deleting stuff. I just have so many thoughts and feelings when we go through this. The main thing is that I want to trust God, in this and in everything in my life. These experiences have made me so aware of how much I struggle to give Him the control and that it would appear that I think I have a better idea of how my life should go than He does. Isn't that crazy? But when I make plans and think they should all come to pass - it's pretty much me saying - I'm smarter. How ridiculous! I will really try to let go and I will keep reminding myself that things will work out the way that they should. I am definitely still hoping that God will give us another little newborn baby to hold in our arms. But if that doesn't happen - it needs to be ok. And it will.
AND ...
we are going to do IVF again. I did mention it once before and there really isn't much to say. We go to Calgary on March 7th or so and will be back the next week sometime. The pregnancy test will be around the 21st of March.
I'm having trouble knowing what to write. I keep deleting stuff. I just have so many thoughts and feelings when we go through this. The main thing is that I want to trust God, in this and in everything in my life. These experiences have made me so aware of how much I struggle to give Him the control and that it would appear that I think I have a better idea of how my life should go than He does. Isn't that crazy? But when I make plans and think they should all come to pass - it's pretty much me saying - I'm smarter. How ridiculous! I will really try to let go and I will keep reminding myself that things will work out the way that they should. I am definitely still hoping that God will give us another little newborn baby to hold in our arms. But if that doesn't happen - it needs to be ok. And it will.
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