It's been a week since I posted and so I feel like I should say something. I'm afraid I have a pretty one track mind right now. Our results from the IVF are scheduled for next monday so we are still waiting. This past first week of waiting pretty much crawled by and I'm expecting the same with this week. The thing about the second week is that my body starts responding and I evaluate every little feeling. Unfortunately the signs of being pregnant and of not being pregnant are pretty much the same. Isn't that fantastic? Plus I can get nauseous and crampy from the hormones I am on so who knows what is going on!! It becomes a big mind game that starts as soon as I wake up and goes on all day. I make myself crazy.
And within all of that I pray and I ask God to help me Trust in Him and that by the time I get my Pregnancy Test that I will really be ok with either result. If I were really leaving it in His hands I could just let it go and not think about it right? We sure have a hard time, as humans, of letting go of the control. I know that that is what God wants me to do. He wants me to know that things will work out for the best and in the way He intends them to be. He doesn't want me to be all stressed out and emotional. Why should I be? He is over all and in all and above all. Why do I worry? Why does it even matter either way? In the grand scheme of things it doesn't. Life is full of joys and disappointments but the fact is - if God is in our lives it's all ok and just a part of our journey to HIM.
So, I think what I will go and do now - is play with the great little kid that God has already given me and make some fun Easter plans!!
And within all of that I pray and I ask God to help me Trust in Him and that by the time I get my Pregnancy Test that I will really be ok with either result. If I were really leaving it in His hands I could just let it go and not think about it right? We sure have a hard time, as humans, of letting go of the control. I know that that is what God wants me to do. He wants me to know that things will work out for the best and in the way He intends them to be. He doesn't want me to be all stressed out and emotional. Why should I be? He is over all and in all and above all. Why do I worry? Why does it even matter either way? In the grand scheme of things it doesn't. Life is full of joys and disappointments but the fact is - if God is in our lives it's all ok and just a part of our journey to HIM.
So, I think what I will go and do now - is play with the great little kid that God has already given me and make some fun Easter plans!!
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