The sun is actually shining in my windows today. Thank goodness. I was feeling pretty gloomy from all that cloud cover. And maybe it will motivate me to get out of my pajamas. I'm actually having a bit of an internal debate. I'm wondering why we bother? I mean the little kids never leave the house (unless we leave town and then they just stay in the house wherever we've travelled to). It makes me want to cry. But, back to my point. I get the kids up and changed and dressed for the day most days. Then at night we take off their clothes, throw them in the laundry and put their pajamas back on. So, each day I have that small chore AND we make all this laundry. Then I do a load or two of laundry per day. SO - If we just stayed in our pj's all day (no one really sees us anyway) we'd have half as much laundry. HMMM.
It really is tough though - that my kids have so little variety in their life. We can't go swimming or skating or sledding. We can try some of that occasionally but only in the evenings. We are totally trapped ALL DAY LONG - EVERY DAY. Now - don't get me wrong. I didn't have to scrape my windows this morning or get ready before the sky was getting light. I get to be with my kids all day long which I am very grateful for. It just breaks my heart that we can't do anything. I keep thinking back to when it was just Caden and I. Every week we would go to the library, go to storytime, go swimming, get all our errands run, walk around Wascana Park a few times. A few times a month we'd go to the museum and then the science center when he got older. Luckily he's old enough now that he can go to preschool and has a couple of activities to do and some friends that visit. It just makes me so SAD that we can't do more. He's 4 and a half. I'm holding him back. And the little kids. They aren't learning those skills. Like how to be out in public with us. And just the different stimuli that naturally happens for them. Even if you are just running to the store. It's incredibly frustrating to me. I keep telling myself that it will change as they get older. And of course it will. But it doesn't change how I feel about the last year and the next one to come.
It really is tough though - that my kids have so little variety in their life. We can't go swimming or skating or sledding. We can try some of that occasionally but only in the evenings. We are totally trapped ALL DAY LONG - EVERY DAY. Now - don't get me wrong. I didn't have to scrape my windows this morning or get ready before the sky was getting light. I get to be with my kids all day long which I am very grateful for. It just breaks my heart that we can't do anything. I keep thinking back to when it was just Caden and I. Every week we would go to the library, go to storytime, go swimming, get all our errands run, walk around Wascana Park a few times. A few times a month we'd go to the museum and then the science center when he got older. Luckily he's old enough now that he can go to preschool and has a couple of activities to do and some friends that visit. It just makes me so SAD that we can't do more. He's 4 and a half. I'm holding him back. And the little kids. They aren't learning those skills. Like how to be out in public with us. And just the different stimuli that naturally happens for them. Even if you are just running to the store. It's incredibly frustrating to me. I keep telling myself that it will change as they get older. And of course it will. But it doesn't change how I feel about the last year and the next one to come.
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Maybe, if you can, let E,D&L go outside in your yard just for a few minutes a day when Caden is at preschool. It'll do them good and if you throw your coat on to get some fresh air with them, it'll make your day a little better too.
And it's not like you have to get them outside every day...even once a week would be a good start.
Take Care!
CQ