Waiting

Well, today is day number 4 in our 2 week wait (it is also close to what would have been my due date if this had worked in february). It's been pretty good so far. We've had our friends, the Pippus' here for the weekend which has been fun and has helped us focus on something other than what was going on in my body. I've been worrying some because I'm never sure what I am feeling. Anyone who has gone through this knows that you evaluate every twinge, cramp, nauseosness, every lack of feeling, EVERYTHING. It's very taxing. Very tiring. You keep counting the days to your preg. test. and are amazed at how few days have actually gone by :).

I feel ok mostly though. I know there are worse things that could happen to a person. When you are immersed in it - it feels like the end of the world but what I have said a few times already is - that we are not waiting for good or bad news. Just good news or not good news. You know? Some people are waiting to hear back on blood tests to tell them of some scary diagnoses. Our life is really good. REALLY REALLY good. Yes I want more children and yes I want to get this stage of going for IVF and having 2 week waits and being on all the hormones to be over. I want to start thinking about other things. And I want to know stupid things like what size car we need or how many bedrooms we want in our next house. Things like that. I like to plan. I like to know what is happening next. this experience is trying to teach me patience and peace no matter what. I am a slow learner!! But I am working on it.

So whatever happens we'll be ok. We'll try again if we need to. Don't get me wrong. There will be some tears either way! And the countdown continues.....