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A little lost

Ok - here's a post that isn't just an update or pics of my kid. It's more of a whine so I apologize :)

Do you ever feel like life is just passing you by? I have so much to be grateful for and am so excited about the future. At the same time though I feel like I've done nothing but try to 'get things done' - all summer. I had hoped to do so much more with Caden and for the 3 of us to spend quality time together. We've done some things but there just doesn't seem to be time between getting groceries, cleaning the house and getting things here at the house prepared (Oh - and trying to rest which is supposed to be my biggest priority). I know what is important - people - but I'm neglecting everyone. I don't really know how my friends are doing and it just isn't me. I miss having bbq's and going for walks around the park. And here it is August already. And even though I know better I'm still making my lists. I mean, the fact is, we are going to have 3 babies and a 2 1/2 year old here in a few months so some of these things really do need to get done. Whew....

Balance.

That always seems to be the magic word and I just don't feel balanced at all. It doesn't help that my personal time with God has also gotten lost in the chaos. I really can't be losing that. Then I really will lose my mind. So - ya - time is flying by and I'm feeling lost a little right now. (But the nursery is now painted! :) ).

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Anonymous said…
you're not alone... overwhelmed is one way of looking at it - you can't be everywhere and everything to everyone all of the time!! try not to let the 'guilt' get to you. enjoy what time you do have and focus on the minutes as they pass - no matter what you're doing - even the mundane carries wonder in it - sometimes you just have to look a whole lot harder for it! ;) things will change far too quickly for all of you and then this guilt you're feeling will only grow if you let it (easier said than done I know all too well). allowing yourself to panic and whine every once in a while is natural... and it will pass only because there's no other option but to move on! try not to take things so seriously... Caden will eventually enjoy being a big brother and you'll manage with the triplets. It'll all work out as it should in the end.
4:28 pm
Laurie said…
I think that you are doing awesome! I think all of us feel overwhelmed at times, and struggle with feeling guilty.

It's when other people notice and say to me "your kid is really well behaved" or "you do so much with your kids".....that I actually see it.....a lot of times I am so hard on myself...and only see the things that I just can't seem to get to doing...

I don't know if that made sense....but what I am trying to say is....you are doing awesome!!!! And you are wonderful host, friend, wife, mom.......don't be too hard on yourself!! And you do wonderful things with Caden!!! You do!!!

Take it easy on yourself.

Someone once told me that the words "You aren't doing enough" in our head doesn't come from God! He would never tell us that we aren't enough! You are doing what you can....and it is great! :)

Ok, it is late....and I am over tired........so I hope this wasn't crazy babble!

Love you, wish I was there to see your belly grow! :D
11:45 pm
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