I'm venting a little today. We haven't slept since we got back from Saskatoon 10 days ago. And it is getting to me. How many days am I expected to go and still function as if everything is normal? How long do I have to keep doing what I do? Forever? Ah, yes, that is the answer for all mothers isn't it? Although the dad in this house hasn't slept either. He has to stare at a computer screen all day now. Ugh.
Last night was tops though. You won't believe it. Caden woke up at 330 because he had a bad dream. We settled him down and went back to bed. 2 minutes later, just as we've warmed back up under our covers, he calls out again. We take him to the bathroom this time just to be on the safe side. While that is happening, due to the sound and the light, Evan wakes up crying. I give him a soother, we put Caden back to bed and lie in our bed - hoping that is the end of it. A few minutes later Caden calls out again. This happens periodically for the next hour but it's not really his fault. How is he supposed to sleep when his brother is screaming in the next room? Yup - Evan and Caden were awake from 330 - 515ish. And so were we. We finally feel the peace descend on the upper floor of our house and by 533, I'm starting to settle down and believe that they may actually be asleep this time. Anyone want to guess what time Liam decided to get up for the day? ... The answer is 540. I had 7 minutes. I had to keep him quiet so that everyone else could get a little more sleep and by 715, everyone was up except Dylan. As a matter of fact, it's been 12 hours since we put Dylan to bed and he is still asleep. What a great kid !! :)
My body feels like sludge, not to mention my brain. And yet everyone still needs to be dressed, fed and loved - all day long. So moms out there - help me - how in the world do you do this? What did I miss? How do you not completely melt down at the impossibility of doing this well? How do you just keep doing and doing and doing? And I don't even have a job to fit in here. Wow - I am humbled by all the moms out there that keep that smile on their face and who have kids that are all well adjusted and happy. And if there is some secret - let me in on it kay?
Last night was tops though. You won't believe it. Caden woke up at 330 because he had a bad dream. We settled him down and went back to bed. 2 minutes later, just as we've warmed back up under our covers, he calls out again. We take him to the bathroom this time just to be on the safe side. While that is happening, due to the sound and the light, Evan wakes up crying. I give him a soother, we put Caden back to bed and lie in our bed - hoping that is the end of it. A few minutes later Caden calls out again. This happens periodically for the next hour but it's not really his fault. How is he supposed to sleep when his brother is screaming in the next room? Yup - Evan and Caden were awake from 330 - 515ish. And so were we. We finally feel the peace descend on the upper floor of our house and by 533, I'm starting to settle down and believe that they may actually be asleep this time. Anyone want to guess what time Liam decided to get up for the day? ... The answer is 540. I had 7 minutes. I had to keep him quiet so that everyone else could get a little more sleep and by 715, everyone was up except Dylan. As a matter of fact, it's been 12 hours since we put Dylan to bed and he is still asleep. What a great kid !! :)
My body feels like sludge, not to mention my brain. And yet everyone still needs to be dressed, fed and loved - all day long. So moms out there - help me - how in the world do you do this? What did I miss? How do you not completely melt down at the impossibility of doing this well? How do you just keep doing and doing and doing? And I don't even have a job to fit in here. Wow - I am humbled by all the moms out there that keep that smile on their face and who have kids that are all well adjusted and happy. And if there is some secret - let me in on it kay?
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I can relate to your tiredness. Dawson gave us a run for our money and didn't let us sleep for about two months. I wasn't sure Darcy and I were going to make it - it's hard when you're both running on empty. It will pass and your kids will sleep again - once you can sleep you will be able to cope. I don't have much advice, just sympathy, but it does get better. Don't put too much stress on yourself and only do what you are capable of. Hang in there!
Hope
I spent many days in pyjamas and so did my kids and on the those icky days when I happened to have had to put a kid back to bed with nightmares and then hold a head while the gorged their guts out, the TV helped out, so that I had a little peace for a two minute nap. Oh and then there were all those times I didn't get any laundry or cleaning done and then we swallowed whatever was fastest...microwaved potatoes anyone...ravioli...mac and cheese?? And all that was with two kids 2 and under...you are 4 kids 3 and under...don't pressure yourself to be super mom...because you don't need to be!! In your kids eyes you will always be fantastic!! Being a mom does not equal perfection!!
Ok I am done now. heehee.
What can I say, sludge happens. Roll with it.
Love you guys!
Trinda