Caden has been doing pretty well but I think it's been a lot to take. I think he might be craving some quiet time like the old days. Just a day with he and I. Anyway - I've been feeling really bad for him and yesterday I was upset enough that I started to tear up because he'd gotten into trouble and I, being hormonal and overtired and riddled with guilt, started to cry thinking it's a terrible mess and will he survive it? Well, he sees me and starts to cry. Oh boy! So we hugged and hung out and we talked and we cuddled and it was all good.
Today was the day we were finally able to go out with him. My mom and I took him to the library in the mall to get some movies and books. Then he rode on the little cars in the mall hall way and got some jelly beans. We wandered down to Walmart for nuggets but on the way we stopped in at payless. We ended up seeing these "Cars" shoes that light up. He wanted them. I didn't really want him to have them. But then I thought "oh why not". So I said we could try them on. Well, he puts them on and his face lights up and I was sunk then. The guilt got me and he got Cars light up shoes. And marched around the mall in joy for the rest of the time. It was cute.
SO , I need to be careful that I don't spoil him too much during all of this. It's really really hard. Will I ever feel like I am giving them all enough attention? Being gone for a few hours with Caden made me feel bad for not spending enough time with the babies. Oh boy....
Today was the day we were finally able to go out with him. My mom and I took him to the library in the mall to get some movies and books. Then he rode on the little cars in the mall hall way and got some jelly beans. We wandered down to Walmart for nuggets but on the way we stopped in at payless. We ended up seeing these "Cars" shoes that light up. He wanted them. I didn't really want him to have them. But then I thought "oh why not". So I said we could try them on. Well, he puts them on and his face lights up and I was sunk then. The guilt got me and he got Cars light up shoes. And marched around the mall in joy for the rest of the time. It was cute.
SO , I need to be careful that I don't spoil him too much during all of this. It's really really hard. Will I ever feel like I am giving them all enough attention? Being gone for a few hours with Caden made me feel bad for not spending enough time with the babies. Oh boy....
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We are so happy that you guys have this great big happy family.
you've been a great mom to Caden, that's not going to change! thinking of you as you try to find balance and peace with everything!
You will do an awesome job with all of them!!
One on one time is important. And I even think a little spoiling once in a while is ok too!
I, too, have guilty feelings all of the time! I hate disappointing any of my kids! LOL
Glad you had fun with him!!